Haven’t you noticed how it’s so easy to say things that we feel online instead of in real life? This reminds me of a movie I saw not too long ago: You’ve Got Mail (Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks) kind of sad, but recommendable for rainy days. Truth is I expect to get some kind of answers to my questions in this blog but…I know I won’t, after all, it’s an anonymous English class assignment, what can come out of it? Anyways, I think it is at least useful to simply throw these questions and problems out there…To be completely honest, I’m saying anything that comes to mind to try not to speak about the problem that really worries me.
I argued with a friend of mine over a week ago and still haven’t settled out differences. The problem, or advantage, depending on your point of view, is that I don’t know him…he’s an online friend. It’s ironic how you can only know someone through a computer and still call him your friend. As they say in “You’ve Got Mail”, one of the good things of online relationships is that you always end up talking about something; it might be something as ridiculous as sports, the weather, week-end plans, whatever but to some extent, a friendship is formed. Anyways, this cyber-friend of mine got really upset over something I don’t consider specially serious and, maybe because of my reaction (he thought I lied to him in a conversation (I didn’t, just for the record) and I don’t have any way to prove I’m right), or maybe because of both our prides, we haven’t talked yet. I tried talking with him but he won’t listen…over a week’s gone by and I’m not really sure how this is going to end. You would think that with a simple right-click “delete contact” on my messenger it would be enough; after all, all I know of him is simply a combination of zeros and ones so, what should it matter? I’m afraid it really does…you can say that he might not be the person I know if I met him in the street but, I haven’t, and the cyber-version of him which I have met, I like and don’t want to lose. One of the disadvantages of being only online is that he can simply get rid of his problems by blocking or deleting me, in real life you see each other every day, which eventually forces you to talk…here, I might not talk to him ever again…who knows? He probably just deleted me after the conversation…which scares me because I though I meant more to him than just a bunch of numbers…it might be him, it might be my paranoia (we might end up laughing tomorrow about all this) but right now this esoteric combination of zeros and ones which make up my friend and I is giving me more problems than any real-life relation…ironic.
I argued with a friend of mine over a week ago and still haven’t settled out differences. The problem, or advantage, depending on your point of view, is that I don’t know him…he’s an online friend. It’s ironic how you can only know someone through a computer and still call him your friend. As they say in “You’ve Got Mail”, one of the good things of online relationships is that you always end up talking about something; it might be something as ridiculous as sports, the weather, week-end plans, whatever but to some extent, a friendship is formed. Anyways, this cyber-friend of mine got really upset over something I don’t consider specially serious and, maybe because of my reaction (he thought I lied to him in a conversation (I didn’t, just for the record) and I don’t have any way to prove I’m right), or maybe because of both our prides, we haven’t talked yet. I tried talking with him but he won’t listen…over a week’s gone by and I’m not really sure how this is going to end. You would think that with a simple right-click “delete contact” on my messenger it would be enough; after all, all I know of him is simply a combination of zeros and ones so, what should it matter? I’m afraid it really does…you can say that he might not be the person I know if I met him in the street but, I haven’t, and the cyber-version of him which I have met, I like and don’t want to lose. One of the disadvantages of being only online is that he can simply get rid of his problems by blocking or deleting me, in real life you see each other every day, which eventually forces you to talk…here, I might not talk to him ever again…who knows? He probably just deleted me after the conversation…which scares me because I though I meant more to him than just a bunch of numbers…it might be him, it might be my paranoia (we might end up laughing tomorrow about all this) but right now this esoteric combination of zeros and ones which make up my friend and I is giving me more problems than any real-life relation…ironic.
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